In these times of change in the music industry, I’ve sent my music to just about every label that publishes my genre of music. I am certain that out of the many, there are some great musicians, and I am one of them. Why am I worthy or why am I special? ( oooo ego trip here)
My story is extraordinary. I am deaf in my left ear. Against all odds, I can perform on stage. Yeah, the deck is stacked against me in live shows, with other musicians. The sound is hard for me to hear what I am doing! Its difficult to do, but its not impossible. I started writing music at 14. I took lessons at 8. I was your typical child that hated practicing. But I kept at it. I did quit for a year, but then I just couldn’t stand it being away from learning. My parents were not rich, but always kept food on the table and we had clothes and a nice house. We had pets, a cat, dog, guinea pig and guppies. We vacationed in the summer for 2 weeks in Wisconsin thanks to my thrifty Mom! I grew up with 2 sisters and 3 brothers. We were the “Brady Bunch”!
I don’t party, I don’t drink, I don’t smoke.. I’ve tried alcohol and it dug me under. I gave it up for many reasons. 1. I was a mess, 2. I chose to live without it because of religious reasons. I tried drugs and I hated them all. I didn’t like how I felt after I came down off of them. I don’t judge. You live the way you want, if you want my opinion I’ll give it to you, but I won’t try to convert you. I expect the same respect I give to you, given to me.
I work hard. I am a Mother of 4 children. 18, 14, 11, and 9. My oldest daughter is in the Army. My husband is my cheering section. We had funding for my 3rd album. Now, I am trying to raise the money for a fourth album. I can’t do it alone because we don’t have the funding we had before. Its just the times.
What about working outside of my home you ask? I have done that. I worked at a music store and cleaned toilets, floors, instruments, was a clerk, stocked things, helped order things, customer service. I was told I should sacrifice everything for my music. I almost lost everything because I almost didn’t learn the value of balance.
So at great expense to my children, I worked outside of my home. Neglecting my music, neglecting my family.. and I finally returned home. I am happy to be here. Not at the mercy of a Boss.. ( I had a GREAT boss btw… easy to work with). I am my own boss. While I enjoyed being out in the world working with some good people, my family comes first, then my music.
So now the question is, when is my new album going to be released? I don’t know. All I know is, I need to have faith that all the hard work I am doing now to create interest in my music, will pay off in some way.
My music is based on my life experiences, and my closest of friends experiences, places I have been, feelings… If I had to give a speech, I’d much rather have my “speech” expressed on the piano.
I know I am good at what I do, I know I can continue to learn and be the best. This is what I have always wanted to do, my husband gave me a chance and I feel successful. I know I won’t let you down.. I am WORTHY of the effort … give me a chance… I dare you…